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I'm 21 years old.  To a lot of people, that's pretty young.  But in 4 months, I'll 'start' my life, reinvent myself, earn a paycheck that will be only 70% of its value, probably get a kitten, consider starting a family, continue my education, .... etc.  At each stage of our life, we reflect on the past and reevaluate everything we know.  21 Feels old to me.

I used to have an online journal...it used to be all the rage when I was in high school.  I was so excited to have friends and read their journals, and I used to try SO hard to write something of meaning in my journals and wait for comments...I know its silly, but what can I say?  But I reread my old entries every so often, and I find it kind of crazy how I managed to imprint myself in the history of the internet at such a young age.  Guess that's why blogging is pretty fucking amazing.

I rent a room in a house with 7 other girls.  I know 8 girls together sounds crazy, and sometimes it's been pretty dramatic...but I'd prefer to live with 100 crazy people rather than by myself.  Independence has its bounds...and people aren't meant to be alone, right?  I don't know a lot, but I'm pretty certain I'm right about this.

I'm in love with a boy.  We don't have the same thought processes, we don't necessarily think the same things are important, we don't always communicate effectively.  But the other 80% of the time, I feel so relieved to have found him.  People keep telling me that I'm very young, and it will be many years until I know what love is...but...why?  Why can't they just let me be  in love?  

I'm hard on people.  Not openly...only in my head.  I don't mean to judge you...and I'd never hold it against you...it's just something I do.  Just like how you might judge me for my typos :)  Be prepared to see many more...I type too fast for my own good.

My head feels crowded most of the time.  Hence....this lengthy post.  I just wanted you to know a few things about me.  (Though I'd be surprised if you actually read this.)